My Mom asked me if I'm ready being 30. (25th Jan 2015-10 PM)
I was in my balcony when I looked up and saw the sky. It is dark. But it is a good background for what I saw through my eyes that night. My 20's flashing back. Tried to remembered every fragments, every pieces, every important events, person, my graduation day, my road trip with my bestfriend, bikini day with my girls, everything.
I can't remember details. LIke I used to. I can't remember dates or what happened exactly that day.
However, I knew I've been through everything that made me learn my lesson, made me grew, made me who I am today.
I put on my earphone while waiting the time ticks, 8 minutes to 12 PM, and I listened to "My Way"-Frank Sinatra. Suddenly, I looked like this :
This is my whatsapp content to my Mom.
Hahahaha. Was I look like mess?
I am crying, not only because I am an emotional person, but also I am upset SOMEHOW, that I realized I am going to leave my youth behind. Time where I could do almost anything! Free! As young person. Whenever I did something wrong or reckless, I'm just gonna blame my age. ;p
However, when the clock turned midnight, I am calm. Thinking that I am now mature. A mature woman and everybody are getting through the same thing. But also I'm scared too much realizing 10 years are fast. Soon I'll be 40 and it is scary.
Like Joey in F.R.I.E.N.D.S. Sitcom, when him and the rest of the gang turned 30 said "Why God?"
When Rachel doesn't wanna come out from her room, When Monica drunk,when Phoebe realized that she skipped a year of her age, Ross bought the sportscar impulsively and Chandler..well..Joey did the crying while Chandler about to blow the candle.
In 10 years, I'll be 40.
What have I accomplished in my life so far?
After crying on balcony, I slept until morning, wishing that the next day is gonna be a great day, a great age, and I'm gonna be OK.
And ..... IT WAS!
Lots of Prayers for Me
Lots of My Face on Path & FB
Lots of Presents (Mostly Books-Novels)
Lots of Fun
Lots of Love
Love Self
Wishes I Believe Happening Anytime Soon...
Being 30 is not so bad afterall...
sekali lagi happy 30 mba dea!!!! jangan bersedih....sesuatu yang terbaik pasti akan datang buat mba dea..The great thing about getting older is that you don't lose all the other ages you've been. sukses terus ya mba :))
ReplyDeleteWah aku baru baca nih... you are right we don't lose our previous ages... aamiin for your prayers and wishes. Hopig that I could write like you. Full of emotions.. sama2 ya sukses terus!!
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