THE LAST DAYS OF 29.

Jakarta, Thursday, 22nd January 2015

Today, I think about being 20's.

 I still remembered the day I turned 20. 

On my 20th birthday, I called my expat ex (he was then my bf) and cried. 

While crying, I said to him, " I don't wanna be 20. I don't wanna get old!!!"

He only said to me "Age are not gonna go backwards, if you are crying now just because of turning 20, you will cry for the rest of your life. Embrace it."

So I did. I embraced it.

And now, 10 years after that, 

After so so so so so many ups and down, 

so many achievements, failures, so many mistakes, 

so much tears and heartbreaking, 

so many assholes that I used to call "boyfriend",

so much worrying future and insecurities,

so much anger and repressed emotions,

so many bad decisions as 20 something girl, 

so many struggle during what we called a "broken home"

so many traveling...and half-done novels,

so many "half-done"other things I always do but never finished,

so many friends became strangers and so many strangers became friends,

after so much "FUN,DARING,&STUPID" experiments, experiences and explorations in almost 'ANYTHING' (Mom, if you are reading this..........., well, don't! Hahaha.)

Today, 

Realizing my 20's gonna be over in 4 days, I've prepared myself to embraced the big "3".

I think.

But Hey! All I can say is, I HAVE AN AMAZING 20'S!!! GREAT 10 YEARS OF MY LIFE WITH ALL CHAOS & BEAUTY INSIDE OF IT!!! And I am so lucky to survived those years!!!

Well done, Dee! (As I pat my back). Not too shabby, Girl!

Groetjes,

From amazing,outstanding,fabulous,gorgeous and hell of a sexy woman,

Me.

PS : Mom, stop reading my blog. Hahahahaha.